I am more desperate than ever to move away and start our new life. More than I can properly convey in words. There are too many reasons for why I want to get away and the list seems to grow daily.
We have come to accept that, given our situation, we will not be able to get a mortgage. It has made me sad because I really hoped that the next time we moved would be into a house that we owned. But for now that is just a pipe dream. A slightly more realistic option would be for us to buy a plot of land and build our own ‘flat pack’ home, but even that feels very far out of reach. So, after months of seeking out a house to buy, my search is now focussed on rental properties.
Rightmove has become a drug to me. I crave it when I’m not on it, my heart races when I am on it, and then afterwards I am left with a feeling of emptiness and loss. I can fall in love 10 times in one Rightmove session, but all the while knowing that these loves will never be mine. I am not picky. I just want a home for my family.
Tonight’s trawl has uncovered some mind blowing gems that I would never have found had I not put the buying dream on hold. I have found a couple of houses which are cheaper than the £700 that we currently pay and are 3 times the size. If these houses were in the platinum M21 postcode you’d be looking at a minimum of £2000 per month. Seeing these houses have lifted me a little bit and given me a bit more drive towards getting away. We have a lot of loose ends of tie up here before we can actually move, but I’m hoping that we can secure something in the not too distant future.